Have you ever felt like people come around, spend time with you, suck you dry, spit you out, and move on? I feel as if 90% of all relationships seem to go this way, speaking from personal experience. You pour all you have out to them, loving unconditionally, and yet they're there one minute taking what you have to offer, and gone the next. It makes me feel as if I'm broken, like something is wrong with me that causes everyone to leave. I feel like when I was put together, a piece went missing or was forgotten. I can't help but wonder. It happens once, and you think, "oh, what's up with them?" But when it just keeps happening, you can't help but think, "is it me?" But at the same time, I know there is One who loves me no matter what. That made me just the way I am. I am perfect in His sight.
I'm stuck on part of a song that reminds me of what matters most, the Truth.
I set my affections
Completely on You
There's no more rejection
No more abuse
You melt my defenses Lord
And You call me Your friend
And I'm back in Your arms again
You alone are all I need
For You hold my destiny
You alone are all I need
Oh Lord
In You I am complete.
We must always remember that our Father truly loves us, even when people are trippin'.
-In Christ,
Nathan
If it will console you in the least, know that I find you to be absolutely adorable.
ReplyDeleteAlthough I know in my heart that we are not compatible, and most likely I made no impression on you (when we met), I will confess my crush for you here and now. Anonymously, of course.
We were classmates in High School.. I hadn't matured mentally yet, at the time, or suppressed my true thoughts and feelings, because it was easier.. This lead me to treat you poorly, when in truth, all I wanted was for us to be friends. Silly, I know.
Anyways, like I said, we're not compatible, and that's a shame.. Even still, I want to apologize for the way I treated you.
If I could have done it over again, I would have left you be, instead of using you to mask my insecurities.
Sorry.